I have unfortunately purchased a lot of gifts on my phone this holiday season. Gifts of clothing, appliances and furniture. I didn’t even have to leave the house. I am not doing any Christmas shopping at the little local stores around me. Instead I scroll Tik Tok and Instagram and buy what is tailored to me.
As a child I believed a greater power was trying to get humans to stop interacting with each other and eventually implode. To separate us all through technology. To make a completely interaction-less world. To become so insular, in a way that humans are not meant to be insular.
I recall this every time I do anything now, basically. Albert Einstein said, “Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.” And I know that badass did not fuck around.
Anyone who is friends with me is, by nature, a strong person. I am not easy. I am fast and I am slow. I’m too busy, I’m too nothing. Bring a Mexican Coke to my house and you will be a guest for life.
I can’t believe I’ve been a typer for so long I can read my work on the screen as I type. I am faster if I’m looking at my fingers while I type. That’s just insecurity. I know where all the keys are..
”Trash T.V.” is my favorite T.V.. Don’t try to tell me these character studies aren’t incredible. Just. Don’t. You can fuck off with that, for sure.
I’m sorry, I curse so much. I grew up around cursing which makes me sound as though I was raised by the uneducated. I weirdly was not. My parents just didn’t give a shit.
Oh God.
I’ve bought so many things on my phone and I have no idea where they are being shipped overseas from. I have no idea what I’m doing anymore. Please swoop me up with a Mexican Coke before we implode.
I'm sure you know of the Kurt Vonnegut tale about buying envelopes. It crops up around this time of year without fail. And it's true. But there's also a certain sanity that online shopping provides. Though I'm not sure it's a very good version of it. At least we can control the lighting and noise. That's good enough.
I'll never understand your adoration for Coke and McFish sandwiches, but the rest of you is relatable on a level that is poetically satisfying. Every piece you write.
love your writing. When I was a child, I realized God wants us to be with other people. It's super hard for us introverts. I must fight my natural inclination to prefer solitude. Not all the time, but ultimately, lol. Also, this was before I went and had 7 kids. These use up all my social energy.