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I know how you feel. They will be angry right now. but it won’t be forever. You are also modeling for them what to do if they are ever in the same place. You are literally being the best mom instead of staying static. This stranger is so proud of you.

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SCREAM!

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sending love! hope today was better.

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To do what you're doing is already courageous. To write about it the way you do is kindness. Wishing you continued strength and so much gentleness.

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never turn down the opportunity for a walk to the end of the track- it might end in keening and that's always a good thing. xx

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This is such a good thing you've done for yourself. It's brave in a scary storm. Hoping you return to your life feeling strong and screamed out.

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Goddamn it. I didn’t think I could appreciate you any more than I do & now you’re doing the thing I’ve been trying to do for over a year: you’re writing about inpatient. You are incredible! As always, thank you for your candor.

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🤍🤍

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Sending good vibes, Kelly

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I just started an outpatient program because of lifelong anxiety, OCD and misophonia among other things. I feel for you and I feel you (not in a creepy way.) You do important work in so many ways. I hope you don’t have to scream at the tracks tomorrow but it sounds wonderful. Maybe ask them if they have any old computers to smash a la Office Space. My fond regards to you, illuminator.

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stay with it. go scream at the track. or don't. either way, you're doing the shitty, hard work of healing.

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I have nothing but love for you, Kelly ❤️❤️ I know sort of how this feels, but it's not about me. You will feel better. But you might feel bad for a while. And scream so we can all hear it. Sending lots of healing vibes. ❤️

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